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Motivation is lacking.

It’s been a while since I last posted here but in all honesty I just didn’t know what to say or do.

So first off I’m alive and covid has not managed to infect me . Yay!! But that’s about the only good news I have for one I’m not working anymore yes hehe surprise surprise so my only source of income is me doing atovks and online selling. That and well cosplay. I wanted to do livestreaming atleast get back to it but my PC was like NOPE not letting you. My GPU fans decided it was going to break and so I can’t run OBS without my GPU overheating and crashing the whole system.

This killed my motivation for streaming as I don’t have the money to either fix the fans or buy a new GPU.

What about the anime site? Well that one is at a standstill right now as I’m not able to store anime nor am I able to render anime at different qualities at the moment so while the site is up it’s not being maintained.

What about the discord servers? Well the gaming server is slowly being built hopefully my motivation cimes along with it. As for the roleplay well I haven’t really found anyone wanting to do normal RP on discord which is sad and has me depressed I might run a D&D campaign but we’ll see.

So yeah right now my motivation for streaming is almost non existent I do still play Genshin Impact and will be returning to Arknights. I’ll still be trying to figure out a way of not stressing my GPU in order to stream this basically requires me to have atleast a secondary machine for CPU encoding.

I’m currently archiving the Roleplay on the discord server. And building my gaming one.

Lastly I’m thinking of ways to continue the anime website.

If anyone wants to help me out of the goodness of their heart cause honestly I’m broke. I need people to moderate on discord and somw socials, people to help me in searching and maybe rendering anime, lastly I need people to just watch on twitch so I might grow my audience and maybe earm a buck or two.

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My soul is weeping.

I haven’t posted in a long while what with the world being crazy and all but it can’t be helped.

For June and July I’ve been following streamers and streaming myself, but for this month of August I haven’t streamed yet, I just felt like I’ve been lacking something, there’s something missing and when I got to a part of the series I was playing that did mot really have me feel like playing mainly because I felt the game changed it’s prospective and it didn’t sit well with me from there it was a downward travel.

Normally I’d play the long game bide my time and just wait do my projects and slowly build up, but lately I suppose I’ve been craving the sense of satisfaction that’s escaped me for a while now it’s been a downward slope, only I suppose it just took me a long time to drop to the button as I’ve had people that are with me who’ve been very supportive, lifting me up and allowing me to push back.

I’m really grateful I am but maybe because it’s been months and we’ve barely accomplished anything that I’ve been feeling down, I know there’s the pandemic I know it’s crazy but I suppose I had this blind hope that with a little effort we’d grow quickly but sadly that’s not happening now I’m just continuing in a monotone.

It took me a while to notice that I’ve bee just going through the motions, my soul is weeping it wants to sing a symphony, a song that will touch the souls of others through my work but it’s also withering slowly it’s voice is being carrier away in the wind fading.

This isn’t a nice place to be and this post I suppose I just wanted to release my thoughts

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I haven’t been posting…

I haven’t been posting because well it’s just been hard and there is a lot to do. I haven’t been able to process everything at once.

October, November and December has been a whirlwind of dealing with frustrations with work and personal issues that made me just want to give up so that’s what I did. I walked out of my job come the new year of January 20202 and went back to doing freelance work.

I left the apartment I was living in and moved back home, I also took the time to find myself.

Just when I was getting shut together well COVID 19 hit and now I am stuck at home which is not really a bad thing. I’m getting a lot of work done and I’ve decided to stream or atleast get back to being a streamer on twitch we now have our website and social accounts updated and there will be more updates and maybe a rework coming soon

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Reworks in progress

You all remember when I posted that someone has accepted to be our official Artist for the network? Well that commitment has now been made official our new logos are her works and I am proud to have Rimake as our offical artist for the Butterfly Network.

You can find Rimake on.

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/rimake2706/
https://www.facebook.com/rimakemakes/

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ridesignn/
https://www.instagram.com/rrimake/

The new Logos will be replacing the old placeholder ones on all my social media channels Twitch,YouTube Facebook and of course this website.

Apart from the logos you might have also noticed that I have reworked the website to a new design along with this I hope to finish working on the archive which will hopefully contain my stories along with my ideas and other writing mishaps or works.

The discord servers I still have no proper ETA on however I wish for it to go live this November or just before December begins as this is the time when people are on vacation and would be looking for servers to join

Progress is fun hopefully we get more things done in the coming weeks.

One last thing, I’m sorry as there are no updated to my stories yes but rest assured I’mm get back to writing I just really need to get our of my creative slump

-Black Butterfly

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Blog Update

Yes it’s an update for the blog.

I’ll be password protecting my personal blog posts that I feel that are too personal, I’ll be sharing the password with a few friends and family members but that’s it those posts will not become public unless of course this website is hacked which I’ll be doing my damnedest to prevent and trust me on this I’ll be sure to make it so it can’t be hacked.

Next is I might be separating the blog posts stated above to it’s own private menu for logged in users only for added protection, no one from the public will ever know about the posts.

Now about my stories well I’ve recently began reviewing both and I’m happy to announce that once I’m done I’ll be continuing to write both of them after I do some alterations.

Lastly the discord server will most likely go live before November ends, the admin team yes that includes me are busy people so progress is slow.

I suppose that’s it for now.

-Black Butterfly

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Good things happen to those who wait

As the title says good things happen to those who wait several good things happened to me today one is that I’ll be moving to a new apartment, more privacy and hopefully more time to write. YES that means I might be able to actually finish my promised chapters lol.

Another piece of good news is that someone agreed to be the official artist for me and my brand so Twitch, Discord, Facebook and the site will be seeing changes when it comes to it’s art.

Lastly i posted this to the page already but me and a few friends are building our discord server hopefully a success you can find the banner on the websites navigation panel.

– Black Butterfly

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Tik tok goes the clock.

Time passes by so fast it’s already nearly November leaving a lot of things have happened, a friend out of work for now to pursue their dreams a new inspiration and several projects that are seemingly coming together.

I know I haven’t fulfilled a lot of things and I’m sorry about that but have patience and things would things would come eventually.

-Black Butterfly

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I need to adapt some more

So I have several plans.

1 Get back to streaming and I mean truly get back.

2. Finally post chapter 10 for Fuck! I guess I’m in a zombie apocalypse

3. Get the archive running and ai mean running, the archive is up but I still need to fix the bug on posting stories

4. Adapt to work and not sleep as much.

5. Get my discord server running.

These are my goals for this month that I hopefully will accomplish and I mean HOPEFULLY it’s hard with my workload but I must do it

See you all on my next update whenever that is.

-Black Butterfly

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Busy,busy,busy

Hey everyone it;s been so long, you might be wondering what I’m doing? or maybe you’ve just lost hope of me ever posting a new story chapter or doing a new live stream. all I can say is that’s understandable and I’m very sorry.

Now this is the part that I reason out but surely my reasons aren’t important I just need to make content and publish more chapter hehe, alas I’m still going to reason out, you see I’ve been very busy with work not just programming in freelance but actual work for a company and so my schedule has been very packed and I and my time has been monopolized by this. BUT BUTTERFLY YOU DID A LIVE STREAM OF THE WALKING DEAD JUST RECENTLY” you might say to which I would answer I wanted to live stream all the episodes but I’ve only done two of them due to being very busy and live streaming takes less time than writing a chapter does, I used to publish a chapter every day but when I did that I was writing the chapter on and off for the whole day.

Now since I’m posting this obviously somethings are going to happen first is an update, the last post here was that I still did not have my new ISP install my internet connection that already went and passed my ISP installed the new fiber optic connection two days before my first live stream of the walking dead and so that problem is now fixed I will be live streaming in an undefined schedule basically when I have time.

Next is for chapter 10 of “Fuck! Well I guess I\’m in an apocalypse” well I’ll be posting it along with several chapters maybe until chapter 18 making it 9 chapters per me being active well maybe I don’t know since it will be dependent on my schedule all I can say is that chapter 10 will be posted within the next week or two I can’t promise to post it before September ends but well I’ll try hehe.

and that ends this long post

 

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Still no Chapter and still no internet

I realize I still haven’t written a chapter and I want to apologize because if that, It’s not that I’m busy nor that I’m occupied with other things I just can’t find the motivation to write a chapter at the moment.

As for the having no internet well I’m still in negotiations with another ISP regarding my internet connection so that’s that.

I’m sorry everyone and I promise t to keep everyone updated

-Black Butterfly